Dependency

After reading todays chapter in Purpose Driven Life, 

I'm really feeling its confirmation for what I think God is telling me. "Don't mistake activity for productivity". I spend way to much time on my computer. Talking...looking at people's lives...looking things up on google...

I may do a lot of things on it, but none very productive. Back are the days of phone-books, libraries and driving to a place to get my answer. I feel like its also self-control and trying not to depend on material things...(feel like i'm gonna get blasted for that last part). Besides...imagine if one day all your material possessions are gone? then what... Idk, I feel like God is telling me to fully depend on Him, I just don't know how to fully comprehend it yet. 

How would you go through your day without your phone, computer, car, etc... My car was just in the shop for two days. Reminds me of a few months ago when I didn't have a car, and a scooter that broke down all the time. Maybe that was just God trying to prepare for this journey He's about to send me on. 

I indulge in a lot of things now that I was never raised to indulge in. I wasn't allowed on the phone for hours on end. (Couldn't pay me to be on the phone for more than hour now, but thats because of this wonderful thing called texting.) I'm sure if I had texting back then I would have been limited to 20 texts a day or something ridiculous. (I used to send about 800 texts a day 2 years ago, no joke. I am so glad I don't idolize my phone like that anymore.) When I was a teen, I was only allowed online for an hour a day. I was only allowed 2 soda's a day. Tv was for after 3 on fridays and on the weekends, and only an hour a day. I used to find this absolutely ridiculous but I am thinking now maybe its not... 


I wanted to indulge in all of it so bad, but then I would see my friends who would zone out while watching tv and you couldn't get their attention... I knew people who just COULD NOT live without their coffee in the mornings. (uh oh...might be guilty of that now, except with mountain dew....) Or people who would get headaches if they didn't eat chocolate at some point during the day. The cool thing about my self control back then, is I wasn't afraid of anything. Power went out for two weeks during the hurricane, and I was fine...I was a little upset I couldn't shower but I worked a job, I needed to smell good... Anyways my point is, I think God wants me to cut out all this "stuff" in my life. Rely on him. I'll get it all fine-tuned eventually... I need to start working on it though... Its gonna be tough getting rid 
of these habits. But I bet time will be way better spent than it seems to be lately.